took down the tree

today and it is amazing how good that felt. Though it was a lot of work, my house just seems so bare and that to me makes it feel clean. I did do a lot of cleaning today as well. Bill took the girls to my sister's house during the Steeler's game and I took advantage of getting my house into some kind of order. Tomorrow is the big day. School begins again which really makes my heart ache. It is so hard for me to get back in the swing of things and I am going to miss Mya so very much! At least it is a short week and she wont have to go on Friday. Tomorrow is also the day that I begin the new me. Goodbye fat hello MILF~ that is what I am talking about. Treadmill and slim fast. I am going to warn you all now, that I will be a bigger bitch dieting then I am when I am on my period. Just putting that out there. It is your choice if you care to be around me during this difficult time!

Happy 1-1-11

Went to my neighbors last night. It was a fun time. I had 2 beers and about 10 Jello shots and way more taco dip then one person should ever have by themselves. Most of all there was lots of laughter. Today, my mom went way out of her way and made her traditional New Years food.
She always makes Pork, sauerkraut, hot dogs, and Kielbasa, but this year we also had turkey and stuffing and mashed potatoes. Then she painted the girls nails and put makeup on them like they were big girls about to go out for the night. I was fortunate in that my mom gave me awesome fuzzy soft socks. Thanks mom for all you and Dad do. Your much appreciated and very loved.

Happy New year

not sure what the night will hold for us yet. Poor hubby has to work and he doesnt know what time he will get off. I can't get drunk because I have children that I love and need to make sure are safe. I hope that you all have a safe and wonderful New Year!

silly kids

and I love them. Mya and Laken were in the playroom yesterday giggling away and then they came downstairs to show me why. They made themselves a costume.

and last, but not least my new coffee mug that Mya bought for me at Santa's Workshop at school!

shoulda had coffee

this was the first day I had to wake up early since Christmas vacation started and I had a hell of a time doing it. I woke up and went to get breakfast started before my nephews got here. I was making Pioneer woman's cinnamon toast(which is seriously the best way to make cinnamon toast). I got the butter from the fridge, put it on a plate and put it in the microwave to soften it. I then added the sugar and then the cinnamon...but it didn't look like cinnamon so I smelled it...well shit I added CUMIN. So then I had to start all over. So from now on, I think before making something other then frozen pancakes and waffles I need to have a nice cup of coffee first.

Also Mya (6) cracked me up last night. I was disgustingly picking at the pimples on my face because I have bad habits and have to pick everything...so Mya says, "mommy, why are you picking those? You know it isn't making them go away." I said, "I know, it's just a bad habit."
Mya: "Will I get pimples when I am big?"
Me: "you might. Sometimes people get them and sometimes they don't"
Mya "and sometimes people need proactive!"

TEENAGERS....

SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF ME! I apologize for all the shit I put my parents through when I was one. It is just sad that sometimes it takes having kids of your own to realize why your parents were the way they were. Back when I was a teen, I thought my parents were the biggest assholes ever, but now I am an adult with children and see that you will do what you need to do in order to keep you children safe. I love my parents(well... the one still in my life) and appreciate how they raised me. I hope that when or if my girls become the "Difficult" age that I will be able to stick to my guns and give tough love if needed. I hope that I will not let them scare me with their threats and if they do...I will be able to be strong enough to do the RIGHT things. My kids can hate me if they feel the need to and as much as that would kill me inside, it would kill me more to have something terrible happen to them and know that I didn't try my hardest to make it not.
Drugs, Alcohol, unprotected sex, suicide all these things that now seem to be such a huge part in the teen life make me so scared for my girls to grow up! I pray that I will be able to keep my kids safe from it all, but I know there is no guarantees! I hope that I can have the most open relationship with Mya and Laken and they they are never afraid to come to me about anything and that they know I will always be here for them. I know that my life will not be perfect and will have its ups and downs, but I pray that the downs will not be big ones! So for my future I will wish for lots of STRENGTH to get me through my years to come with TEENAGERS

a nipple zit!~

So here I am, 33 years old and I woke up today with a zit that could be confused with a nipple! At what age is to old for this to still be happening? I thought I would share my lovely nipple zit in a text to my best friend and because we are best friends... she was able to safely comment on my picture. She loved the way that I had to hold up my multiple chins just to show it off! What she loved most though, is the towel wrap on my head because that means I was lucky enough to get a shower today. Not only was I lucky to get a shower, but the world is lucky I did. Today....is a good day