whopper and cheesecake

that is my daily craving. Craving it, but not going for the craving. I am still doing well on my diet and exercise. 4 more days until the first weigh in. I think as long as I continue this path...I will have a good result.


Today I was on the phone with my bff. I told her it was snowing outside. That is when Laken (4) decided to pop into the conversation
Me to bff:It is snowing outside
Laken:No it's not
I open the blind and say
me:Then what is that out there?
Laken:fuzzies

such crazy and funny girls I have.
Im sure it isn't as amusing here as it was in person. I know it must be one of those had to be there to really "get" the humor in it type of things. That's ok though. Just wanted to document a moment that I enjoyed!

DAY 3 OF THE DIET

Today has been kind of rough. I am really a crank ass today. I am not hungry, but I want food BAD!~ I feel like a drug addict! Not that I really know what a drug addict feels like, but I would assume it to be almost the same as this. OK, I am actually thinking that would be worse, but this is bad! As hard as it was for me to do the treadmill today, I did. I wanted to stop when I was below 100 calories burned, but I kept thinking of the super hot ass I want to have and it made me push myself harder. So I walked for 48 minutes and burned over 300 calories. I was pretty happy with that. Now I just need to work on getting those 300 calories burned faster then I did. I sure hope the scale is nice to me on Monday. I actually can't stay off the scale and have weighed myself every day so far. At this point I have lost 2 pounds. I think I am off to a good start.

Day 2

of the diet. I am doing ok so far. I'm not really starving, but I really miss food! on a good note, I did burn 122 calories more today then yesterday on a bad note I am still a bitch. THIS WILL BE WORTH IT! RIGHT? yes it will. I need this to not only feel better about myself, but to also stay healthy to raise my girls for a long time. I NEED to do this. I am heading straight for heart problems (which I already have) and diabetes. I need to do this.....







a fellow photographer shared a cool technique today and I gave it a shot. Mine isn't as pretty, but pretty enough.

Thanks for the lesson girls~ you rock!

Cranky McCrankerson

what is that disgustingly high ass number you ask? Well sadly, it is my current weight. How in the world did I let myself become this size? I am considered obese! Today I am beginning to work on that though. I did the treadmill and burned off 179 calories, which is way lower of a number then I should have done, but I am working slowly. Eventually I will be burning at least 300 calories a day. Oh and I am watching my calorie intake which I am sure is about 2,349,903,453,464,546 X's less then what I have been eating. So this girl is a CRAB today. I did take some before pictures so that at some point I can see my progress, but at this point there is no way in HELL I will show them to anyone. Many props to the contestants on THE BIGGEST LOSER who do not get the choice of not showing their bodies at first. I am not sure I could be as brave or even emotionally handle all the hard work they are forced into. Even though they have fantastic results. I am so excited to see the start of a new season tomorrow. Maybe it will help to motivate me.

picture of the day

took down the tree

today and it is amazing how good that felt. Though it was a lot of work, my house just seems so bare and that to me makes it feel clean. I did do a lot of cleaning today as well. Bill took the girls to my sister's house during the Steeler's game and I took advantage of getting my house into some kind of order. Tomorrow is the big day. School begins again which really makes my heart ache. It is so hard for me to get back in the swing of things and I am going to miss Mya so very much! At least it is a short week and she wont have to go on Friday. Tomorrow is also the day that I begin the new me. Goodbye fat hello MILF~ that is what I am talking about. Treadmill and slim fast. I am going to warn you all now, that I will be a bigger bitch dieting then I am when I am on my period. Just putting that out there. It is your choice if you care to be around me during this difficult time!

Happy 1-1-11

Went to my neighbors last night. It was a fun time. I had 2 beers and about 10 Jello shots and way more taco dip then one person should ever have by themselves. Most of all there was lots of laughter. Today, my mom went way out of her way and made her traditional New Years food.
She always makes Pork, sauerkraut, hot dogs, and Kielbasa, but this year we also had turkey and stuffing and mashed potatoes. Then she painted the girls nails and put makeup on them like they were big girls about to go out for the night. I was fortunate in that my mom gave me awesome fuzzy soft socks. Thanks mom for all you and Dad do. Your much appreciated and very loved.

Happy New year

not sure what the night will hold for us yet. Poor hubby has to work and he doesnt know what time he will get off. I can't get drunk because I have children that I love and need to make sure are safe. I hope that you all have a safe and wonderful New Year!