holy shit balls!

this will be a super quick post because I was in bed and then realized...I did not do my blog. So

Laken was bored today and made herself a homemade case out of an empty toilet paper roll. My girly is creative I tell ya!

Then today we got hit hard with a ton of snow. When it decided it was going to start coming down, it was falling fast. Mya's bus was 30 minutes late and I heard a lot of Sirens. I was so ready to cry. There I was no cell phone and totally feeling hopeless and scared. I figured she was late do to the roads being a mess, but as a Mom, I couldn't stop my mind from wondering. Here is the shitty roads while I waited.
I am hoping for no school tomorrow, but the snow has stopped.

this will be short and sweet

It is TUESDAY and I have still stuck to my diet this week! 1200 calories a day and just a little bit of exercise. My birthday is on the 14th and my goal is to be 149. It may or may not happen, but that is what I am going with for now. Wish me luck!

how is this possible?

today when I weighed myself I was 157 and after posting my numbers this is what myfitnesspal calculated as my weight loss. LMAO!~ I think something is wrong. the real numbers are that I have actually lost 10.8 pounds in the last 21 days. Average of 3.6 pounds a week. I have 27.2 pounds to go until my first goal! I have 97 days to get to my first goal. I am still struggling with the working out, but as long as I am watching what I am eating...I think I will be ok.

today was so nice

because I did something that I rarely get to do these days...Spend a few hours with my awesome MOM! We went to the mall and walked around. It was so nice just to have some mom and daughter time because that is something that I do not get to do very often and no matter how old you are...your never to old to have time alone with your mom. One of the first things she wanted to do was to get something to eat. I was strong and just got a water. It was tough, but I did it. That made me proud :)

officially

in need of a welder. I didn't want to walk in the house today so I thought I would carefully walk on the broken treadmill. I was about 3 minutes into my walk when I felt a weird bouncing feeling. DAMN! this is what I felt

Good thing I didn't keep going. Who knows what might have happened. So I guess its back to walking in the house on cold days and walking out side when it gets warmer. I cannot wait to get my taxes back so that I can get Mya me the Wii. I think I may try out that new Zumba game. I just hope I keep motivated and not give up. I tried on a pair of pants today that I wore in September (just 4 short months ago) and I couldn't even get them over my ass. That is simply sad. So I MUST STAY MOTIVATED.

I just love

this picture I snapped of Laken today. I don't really ever say I LOVE MY PICTURES, but I do say that with this one.

steps

Today I walked up and down my steps 33 times. That took me a total of 10 minutes. I originally planned on doing that for 30 minutes, but that idea quickly went right out the window. I then walked around my living room and kitchen for a total of 3 miles. I am trying to stay dedicated. Then my family had Long John Silvers for dinner. They have a lower calorie option and so I opted for the grilled tilapia and vegetables and rice. Also you get a really good thing of bread. It was good, but I was still wishing that I was eating what my family was eating. Then they wanted to eat something sweet. As hard as it was for me, I made them no bakes and I didn't even taste them. I feel shaky because I want to eat them, but I WILL NOT! I have enough calories left in my day, that I could probably have one, but I know that when I cheat, it is all over :( So I am going to keep a clear picture in my head of how flabby my ass is and if I cheat it will never be a pretty little ass again.