today was so nice

because I did something that I rarely get to do these days...Spend a few hours with my awesome MOM! We went to the mall and walked around. It was so nice just to have some mom and daughter time because that is something that I do not get to do very often and no matter how old you are...your never to old to have time alone with your mom. One of the first things she wanted to do was to get something to eat. I was strong and just got a water. It was tough, but I did it. That made me proud :)

officially

in need of a welder. I didn't want to walk in the house today so I thought I would carefully walk on the broken treadmill. I was about 3 minutes into my walk when I felt a weird bouncing feeling. DAMN! this is what I felt

Good thing I didn't keep going. Who knows what might have happened. So I guess its back to walking in the house on cold days and walking out side when it gets warmer. I cannot wait to get my taxes back so that I can get Mya me the Wii. I think I may try out that new Zumba game. I just hope I keep motivated and not give up. I tried on a pair of pants today that I wore in September (just 4 short months ago) and I couldn't even get them over my ass. That is simply sad. So I MUST STAY MOTIVATED.

I just love

this picture I snapped of Laken today. I don't really ever say I LOVE MY PICTURES, but I do say that with this one.

steps

Today I walked up and down my steps 33 times. That took me a total of 10 minutes. I originally planned on doing that for 30 minutes, but that idea quickly went right out the window. I then walked around my living room and kitchen for a total of 3 miles. I am trying to stay dedicated. Then my family had Long John Silvers for dinner. They have a lower calorie option and so I opted for the grilled tilapia and vegetables and rice. Also you get a really good thing of bread. It was good, but I was still wishing that I was eating what my family was eating. Then they wanted to eat something sweet. As hard as it was for me, I made them no bakes and I didn't even taste them. I feel shaky because I want to eat them, but I WILL NOT! I have enough calories left in my day, that I could probably have one, but I know that when I cheat, it is all over :( So I am going to keep a clear picture in my head of how flabby my ass is and if I cheat it will never be a pretty little ass again.

I took the walk

outside today. It was freezing cold and by the time I was getting close to being done, it started to rain. The ground was such a sloppy mess and in spots very slippy! I thought I was going to be able to go down this one road we have around here and it would be 3 miles the whole way down and back, but I was way off! It was only about 2 miles down and back. I ended up doing a total of 3 miles today though. Funny how different 3 miles feels outside compared to a treadmill. The almighty Ipod came in handy for sure today. Then my friend Jodi has been begging me to go check out Zumba. She does it and loves it, but I am always to shy to go to these kinds of things. I also was afraid I wouldn't be coordinated enough. After giving it some thought, I decided to go watch a class. I could not believe how much fun it looked and how welcoming the people were. I think I just may go to a class every now and then. It will be hard for me to do it a lot. Being a stay at home mom, I won't get much of a chance to go or have money to do it all the time. I do want to go and try it sometime. I will be proud of myself when I do go because I have a hard time with self esteem and always worry about what others will think of me. Oh and I was under my calorie goal again today. When I logged my calories it said if I ate every day the way I did today in 5 weeks I will be 147 I think. I hope that is an accurate number :)

there are no excuses

Yesterday I was ready to give up on the idea of losing weight. I couldn't think how I wanted to exercise being that my treadmill broke! Bff Said there are no excuses and if I am going to make excuses then I am going to be fat. I gave it a lot of thought and she is right! So today I ran 3 miles in my livingroom just by going back and forth. Yes it may sound funny, but I was very sweaty when I was done so I think it did something!~ This again is where Ipods are wonderful. I used my handy dandy cool new app. that I bought a week or 2 ago and I feel that it is pretty accurate. So I guess until we get the wii in this house I will be wearing out my floors. Thanks again BFF for pushing me.
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here are my 2 pictures today that I took and like

Click on the image for better quality :)

Broken

My treadmill has a brace that is breaking on it. I am so sad. I can't use it and it is to cold to workout outside. I am making excuses! This is the reason I stay fat~ Mya is getting a Wii for her birthday so hopefully once we get that, I will be back to doing some kind of workout. I am still trying to watch my calorie intake. Though I gained 4 pounds on the weekend having my Mommies night out. I swore I wouldn't eat or drink, but...I caved.