zumba

this was my first time ever working out to Zumba. I am still unsure of my thoughts. I am not coordinated and that surely showed. I do however, like that it burned almost 600 calories for 1 hour. That was without me doing all the moves because I would get so lost. I will try it again though. Today was my weigh in day and I am down a total of 14 pounds for the month! WHOOP~ Come on February... I am going to kick your ASS~ BRING IT!~

Rough

that is what it was for me to go to my nephews birthday party today. My mom made adorable cupcakes and I wanted one so bad, but I DID NOT CAVE. Afterwards, we went to McDonalds and I did not order anything from there. I went to Bilo for my dinner. Though it was frozen, it was 400 calories! It is the end of the day and I am still way under my calories. Tomorrow is my weekly weigh in. I hope the scale is as nice tomorrow as it was today. Keeping my fingers crossed!~

I am feeling

AWESOME! Like I actually have this shit in the fucking bag. I will be thin again. I have so much support. It is crazy just how a few words of encouragement from facebook friends can hype me up! I got my heart rate monitor watch today and its so cool! It feels great to know that when it says I burn 300 calories that it is more likely I did rather then the guessing of an ipod or a treadmill would say. I love that at the end of the day when I finish logging my calories that I am at my calorie allowance and not over. SO ACCOMPLISHED!

My picture for the day is of Mya and Laken playing school with their babies. It was such a cute moment and though this shot is very snap shotty..I LOVE IT~

gaining guilt

Today I had planned out what I was going to eat when I went to my Mom's. I decided I would have 2 pieces of pizza, but my husband and Mom had some of my favorite Chinese food. I was doing well...until I walked by an egg roll. I just could not turn it away. I tried, but I caved. Then I felt so guilty that I came home and ran 2 miles in my house. I burned 200 calories and I am hoping that egg roll wasn't anymore calories then that. I don't know if there has ever been a time in my life where I would have cared so much that I cheated, that I would need to come home and try to work that off. I hope this is finally my time that I am serious enough about this weight loss thing. Time will tell, but someone told me that it takes 28 days to make something a habit and I am on day 25 of this. 3 more days!!!
I ordered a heart rate monitor watch. I hope it is a good one.
It's ugly, but I won't care as long as it helps me track my calories.

I think it is pretty amazing

how after dieting for almost a month, how much my tastes have changed. I am not saying that I do not crave a whole cheesecake, or a whole thing of cornbread...because at at anytime I would eat them. Today, I find myself really looking at recipes that I never in a million years would have thought I would make or eat. Baked sweet potato fries,baked bananas,broccoli and cheese stuffed chicken! REALLY? Who is this girl? The thing that makes me making these meals hard, is that there is no way in a million years my family would eat them. So when I make something like this, it will be my meal for a week. I am still sucking at the workout thing though. It will come to me...Just going to take some time!~

Here is a picture I took of Laken today to remind me that even though I hate Kool-aid stain mustaches, that some day when my kids are all grown...I am going to miss them.

holy shit balls!

this will be a super quick post because I was in bed and then realized...I did not do my blog. So

Laken was bored today and made herself a homemade case out of an empty toilet paper roll. My girly is creative I tell ya!

Then today we got hit hard with a ton of snow. When it decided it was going to start coming down, it was falling fast. Mya's bus was 30 minutes late and I heard a lot of Sirens. I was so ready to cry. There I was no cell phone and totally feeling hopeless and scared. I figured she was late do to the roads being a mess, but as a Mom, I couldn't stop my mind from wondering. Here is the shitty roads while I waited.
I am hoping for no school tomorrow, but the snow has stopped.

this will be short and sweet

It is TUESDAY and I have still stuck to my diet this week! 1200 calories a day and just a little bit of exercise. My birthday is on the 14th and my goal is to be 149. It may or may not happen, but that is what I am going with for now. Wish me luck!