this weather stinks

We had 2 gorgeous days here last week and I took advantage of both days with a 4 mile walk and a 4.25 mile walk. It was wet and cold here today, but I decided I was going to go out and start the couch to 5k program. Just as I was ready to go out the door it started to rain again. Did I say forget it and not do it? Nope...I did it in my house. Not sure if I ran exactly the amount in the program, but I did try to keep my heart rate in the zone while I did it. When I was finished, there wasn't enough calories burned and so I did my wii cardio until I reached over 300 calories. Today I think I saw a difference in my body. I still do not like the way I look, but I think it looked a little more slimmer than my previous pictures. I have to start looking at myself more because my scale is making me depressed and I cannot do that to myself. It isn't what the scale says. I know I have been working hard and that I am staying in my calorie allowance. I just have to make myself believe what I am typing. LOL

busy day

today has been crazy busy. I needed to go pick up a cake to celebrate my daughters birthday/nephews birthday, but my neighbor called and was having issues with her computer and her oldest needed to do college homework. So I went and fixed that quickly and then picked up the cake. Came home and had a party and had to fix 4 ipods to do facetime and text and set up emails. Then had to go back to my neighbors to finish working on the computer fixing problem. I think for today I might have actually had more computers then I like to have to deal with. At least it made me feel smart for a day.
I am also a little annoyed with myself. I only lost like 8 ounces this past week after working so hard and by accident I ate 40 calories over my allowed amount today because I forgot to track a snack. DAMN. It is crazy how that little amount of going over is enough to piss me off these days. I guess in a way getting mad about it is a good thing. That way I am not still making up excuses and staying fat because of them. Back to being better tomorrow. I will not be staying in the 140's.

No cakey

Tomorrow my family will be celebrating Mya's birthday and my nephews. Which means cake and ice cream oh and my Mom is making cake balls (which I have not ever tried) and will still not be trying them. I am changing my weigh in day to Sundays now because I joined a group on MFP. So I hope tomorrow I will be down a pound or 2. I have really been having problems with my knee. It is grinding which concerns me, but I hate doctors and so therefor I may never know what the hell is wrong with it. It aches so bad tonight that it is making me sick.

forget full

is what I am becoming. I was laying comfortably and half a sleep in my nice cozy bed when it hit me that once again I was forgetting to write my blog. That is all I have to go now. There is something going on that I have to pay attention to

4.25

Hell yeah~ That is what I walked/jogged today in just a little over an hour! Talk about feeling accomplished. I have been busting my ass this week and I hope that it shows on the scale Monday, but even if it doesn't...I cannot get discouraged because I know I have been working hard and eating my calorie allowance and my clothes are a lot less snug. I actually think I feel thinner to. I cannot wait until the end of March because I should be in the 130's. I have worked so hard!~

damn FAIL~

As I was working out today, it hit me that I forgot to post yesterday. SHIT~ I don't know how I let this happen. I am really disappointed that I did that because I was on such a streak. So I am making it up today. Not that it matters because nobody reads this blog anyway. Okay so that is a lie BFF reads it, but that is all. THANKS BFF!
I walked 4 miles outside in the beautiful weather. It is so crazy how fast your stamina comes back. Just a month ago walking a mile about killed me and now I can walk 3 times that. I was so proud of myself~

HOW LUCKY AM I?

TO HAVE THE FUCKING COLD SORES ON MY LIP? They hurt so bad and are so fuckin ugly :(
They need to hurry and leave. They started out as one tiny zit and then grew into one cold sore blister and then this morning when I woke up there was 3 of those stupid things. GO AWAY UGLY GROWTHS I HATE YOU!