SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF ME! I apologize for all the shit I put my parents through when I was one. It is just sad that sometimes it takes having kids of your own to realize why your parents were the way they were. Back when I was a teen, I thought my parents were the biggest assholes ever, but now I am an adult with children and see that you will do what you need to do in order to keep you children safe. I love my parents(well... the one still in my life) and appreciate how they raised me. I hope that when or if my girls become the "Difficult" age that I will be able to stick to my guns and give tough love if needed. I hope that I will not let them scare me with their threats and if they do...I will be able to be strong enough to do the RIGHT things. My kids can hate me if they feel the need to and as much as that would kill me inside, it would kill me more to have something terrible happen to them and know that I didn't try my hardest to make it not.
Drugs, Alcohol, unprotected sex, suicide all these things that now seem to be such a huge part in the teen life make me so scared for my girls to grow up! I pray that I will be able to keep my kids safe from it all, but I know there is no guarantees! I hope that I can have the most open relationship with Mya and Laken and they they are never afraid to come to me about anything and that they know I will always be here for them. I know that my life will not be perfect and will have its ups and downs, but I pray that the downs will not be big ones! So for my future I will wish for lots of STRENGTH to get me through my years to come with TEENAGERS
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