I feel like I want to eat away my sadness. Tomorrow I register my baby for Pre-K~ How the hell did time go so fast? Instead, this will be a quick post so that I can go to bed and not have to feel the guilt of over eating. Hopefully tomorrow I will not have an overly hungry day
I AM DOWN 22 FLIPPING POUNDS~ I felt horrible before bed last night because I ate chocolate popcorn and at least 1/2 a cup. Though it must not have been that bad because I had to weigh in today for a challenge I joined on MFP and I was down 3 pounds from last week. YAYAYAYAYAY~~145 baby. 6 pounds until I am in the 130's!!!I am so excited!~
I did so good for so long and I thought that meant that I could be strong enough to make my kids a yummy snack. I made them Chocolate popcorn. A WEEK BEFORE MY PERIOD IS TO COME! What the hell was I thinking? I went over on my calories and tomorrow I am supposed to weigh in. STUPID ASS MOVE~
Here is a before and so far picture of me. The first one is around the beginning of January and then the other is from yesterday. WHAT A FREAKING DIFFERENCE
today from Mya's teacher. It was about how polite and well mannered she is. It also said that she helps others and it a real joy to have in class. That she thinks Mya's dad and I should be commended as parents. That letter was so touching to me. I am so glad that Mya has had some terrific teachers so far.
despite how much I didn't want to try Zumba again, I did. This time I actually liked it a lot more then the first time. Burned almost 600 calories (which is always a good thing) Tomorrow I may try again. Seriously I worked up a sweat and never do I say that I felt good after a workout, but I can honestly say this time I feel AWESOME! I hope the scale works out this week in my favor~!~
I do not know what my deal is, but today I am just so cranky! It is bad. Everything annoys me and certain people annoy me and I am just ready for bed. I really didnt do bad with me eating today, I went over on carbs a little which irritated me, but I couldn't help it. I so very badly wanted a hot piece of garlic bread. On a good note, Bill thinks he may have found someone to weld the treadmill. Gosh, I hope it gets fixed soon. I miss it even though when I have it, I hate it. It is a love- hate relationship.
We had 2 gorgeous days here last week and I took advantage of both days with a 4 mile walk and a 4.25 mile walk. It was wet and cold here today, but I decided I was going to go out and start the couch to 5k program. Just as I was ready to go out the door it started to rain again. Did I say forget it and not do it? Nope...I did it in my house. Not sure if I ran exactly the amount in the program, but I did try to keep my heart rate in the zone while I did it. When I was finished, there wasn't enough calories burned and so I did my wii cardio until I reached over 300 calories. Today I think I saw a difference in my body. I still do not like the way I look, but I think it looked a little more slimmer than my previous pictures. I have to start looking at myself more because my scale is making me depressed and I cannot do that to myself. It isn't what the scale says. I know I have been working hard and that I am staying in my calorie allowance. I just have to make myself believe what I am typing. LOL
today has been crazy busy. I needed to go pick up a cake to celebrate my daughters birthday/nephews birthday, but my neighbor called and was having issues with her computer and her oldest needed to do college homework. So I went and fixed that quickly and then picked up the cake. Came home and had a party and had to fix 4 ipods to do facetime and text and set up emails. Then had to go back to my neighbors to finish working on the computer fixing problem. I think for today I might have actually had more computers then I like to have to deal with. At least it made me feel smart for a day.
I am also a little annoyed with myself. I only lost like 8 ounces this past week after working so hard and by accident I ate 40 calories over my allowed amount today because I forgot to track a snack. DAMN. It is crazy how that little amount of going over is enough to piss me off these days. I guess in a way getting mad about it is a good thing. That way I am not still making up excuses and staying fat because of them. Back to being better tomorrow. I will not be staying in the 140's.
Tomorrow my family will be celebrating Mya's birthday and my nephews. Which means cake and ice cream oh and my Mom is making cake balls (which I have not ever tried) and will still not be trying them. I am changing my weigh in day to Sundays now because I joined a group on MFP. So I hope tomorrow I will be down a pound or 2. I have really been having problems with my knee. It is grinding which concerns me, but I hate doctors and so therefor I may never know what the hell is wrong with it. It aches so bad tonight that it is making me sick.
is what I am becoming. I was laying comfortably and half a sleep in my nice cozy bed when it hit me that once again I was forgetting to write my blog. That is all I have to go now. There is something going on that I have to pay attention to
Hell yeah~ That is what I walked/jogged today in just a little over an hour! Talk about feeling accomplished. I have been busting my ass this week and I hope that it shows on the scale Monday, but even if it doesn't...I cannot get discouraged because I know I have been working hard and eating my calorie allowance and my clothes are a lot less snug. I actually think I feel thinner to. I cannot wait until the end of March because I should be in the 130's. I have worked so hard!~
As I was working out today, it hit me that I forgot to post yesterday. SHIT~ I don't know how I let this happen. I am really disappointed that I did that because I was on such a streak. So I am making it up today. Not that it matters because nobody reads this blog anyway. Okay so that is a lie BFF reads it, but that is all. THANKS BFF!
I walked 4 miles outside in the beautiful weather. It is so crazy how fast your stamina comes back. Just a month ago walking a mile about killed me and now I can walk 3 times that. I was so proud of myself~
TO HAVE THE FUCKING COLD SORES ON MY LIP? They hurt so bad and are so fuckin ugly :(
They need to hurry and leave. They started out as one tiny zit and then grew into one cold sore blister and then this morning when I woke up there was 3 of those stupid things. GO AWAY UGLY GROWTHS I HATE YOU!
Today I am 34 years old! Holy crap, where has the time gone? Seems like I was just a kid and now suddenly I have a 7 and 4 year old. When your a kid, they try and tell you not to rush growing up because when your grown time just goes so fast. I wish I would have believed all that told me that. So today I have this GINORMOUS cold sore on my lip. How lovely to celebrate 34 years with this lip the size of a planet? :-(
I can't let that get my down though because today I woke up and my scale said 149. That's right 149~ 19 pounds lost since I began this journey!~ 19 pounds to go until I reach my first goal. I decided that since I can't seem to notice a difference I could try on something that didn't fit me a few weeks ago to see if I could tell that way. WELL HOT DAMN~ I fit into the pants I couldn't get over my ass a few weeks ago. I got them over my ass, zipped and buttoned~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~
from my parents today. I thought they were coming to eat some of my delicious wedding soup I made yesterday and to give the girls valentine presents(which they did), but also they brought me a birthday present( I turn 34 tomorrow). I didn't expect anything at all. Most people would not get so excited over the gift I got, but I so desperately needed this gift. They bought me a Bissel 3-in-1 vac. It works so well on tile and laminate flooring. It also has a nifty crevice tool that works way better then my big vacuums crevice tool.
Here is the nifty little sweeper that I love. It is the little things in life that make me so happy. LOL
yesterday Mya had her valentines party at school since they do not have school on valentines day. I love the blog adopt a do and live by it religiously. Seriously, that woman is freaking awesome. Here is how Mya's hair looked
So happy that I finally have tile down in my bathroom. We had to tear the carpet out a few months ago due to the toilet over flowing. I am so happy to have the carpet out because carpet in a bathroom is just NASTY~
I think my scale made it over the HUMP today, but I can't really count it until weigh in day on Monday. I was really excited when it said 148 this morning when I woke up. I even got butterflies in my tummy when I seen that and wanted to cry. I hope I will be strong enough to NEVER let myself go again. It is way to hard to get it back off.
I cannot believe that I had my first born 7 years ago. I am so blessed!! As much as she drives me nutty and as much as she becomes more smart mouthed as time goes by...I LOVE HER MORE THEN LIFE~ My mom worked really hard to make her cute Panda bear cupcakes so she could take them to school tomorrow. My mom is such a fantastic person. She stayed up past 2 am trying to finish these.
Are they not one of the cutest cupcakes you have ever seen before? They sure looked tasty, but I stayed true to myself and my diet. Tomorrow is my weekly weigh in and I don't want to be mad at myself or the scale. I have seen the 160's (almost 170's), 150's and I know it wont be tomorrow, but I can't wait to get into the 140's. I know that is a high number still, but it will get into the 130's!
Oh and I am sorry to all my die hard Steeler fan's~
and still sticking to this diet thing. I am still doing well with eating a 1200 calorie diet. Some days being harder then others. What I am really struggling with is working out. We finally did get the Wii so now I just have to work on getting a workout game for it. I really wish my treadmill wasn't broken. I really do miss that miserable thing. I still have the rest of today and all of tomorrow to lose for the week. This morning I was still only down .8. Not happy with that, but as long as the scale is moving down and not up, I need to like the numbers.
I have officially beat my old blogging record. WHOOT! This is the 41st post. I AM SO FREAKING PROUD OF MYSELF~
I also think my body became scared after my post yesterday because when I woke up this morning I got on the scale and it said that I have lost .8 pounds for the week. My weigh in day is on Monday, so I think by then it will be over a pound. (AT LEAST IT BETTER BE)! I am also getting very excited for Monday because my partner in crime will be back on track. I was lonely without her.
to stay positive, but my scale was up a pound today. It must be water weight or something because I have not cheated at all. This is going to be a short post. It is super windy out and I am going to bed. Hoping for a better day tomorrow. PEACE
has been falling off and on since yesterday and is to continue until mid day tomorrow. I think the kids will not have school and that is fine by me. The first time I went out to shovel today I forgot to wear my heart rate monitor and that really sucks. I always wondered how many calories you really burn cleaning up snow and ice. The 2nd time I went out, I did wear it and I burned 156 calories in 24 minutes. Every time I would log my exercise on myfitness pal, I had a hard time believing that I actually burned that many calories shoveling. I don't know how I never knew of these HRM watches, but as long as I am working out, I WILL HAVE ONE! I think it is a must when your a calorie tracker like myself. Also since having my watch I realize that my high heart rate that I used to have...is still high. That is concerning me enough to know that I HAVE TO KEEP losing this weight. I cannot make excuse I am far to young to be having a heart attack or stroke. I need to get healthy so that I am here for my girls. I also have managed to not step on my scale at night for the last 2 nights. It's been hard, but it just doesn't make sense to step on a scale at the very end of a day. After eating and drinking. Why would I weigh less at night? Sometimes I am just a DORK!
I am a girl:
Mom, Sister, Daughter, friend, Aunt and Wife. I like to eat (which has made me FAT) I love to start blogs and never continue them. Will this be the one I stick to?
This blog will be about everything and nothing...duh, that is what the title says.