officially

in need of a welder. I didn't want to walk in the house today so I thought I would carefully walk on the broken treadmill. I was about 3 minutes into my walk when I felt a weird bouncing feeling. DAMN! this is what I felt

Good thing I didn't keep going. Who knows what might have happened. So I guess its back to walking in the house on cold days and walking out side when it gets warmer. I cannot wait to get my taxes back so that I can get Mya me the Wii. I think I may try out that new Zumba game. I just hope I keep motivated and not give up. I tried on a pair of pants today that I wore in September (just 4 short months ago) and I couldn't even get them over my ass. That is simply sad. So I MUST STAY MOTIVATED.

I just love

this picture I snapped of Laken today. I don't really ever say I LOVE MY PICTURES, but I do say that with this one.

steps

Today I walked up and down my steps 33 times. That took me a total of 10 minutes. I originally planned on doing that for 30 minutes, but that idea quickly went right out the window. I then walked around my living room and kitchen for a total of 3 miles. I am trying to stay dedicated. Then my family had Long John Silvers for dinner. They have a lower calorie option and so I opted for the grilled tilapia and vegetables and rice. Also you get a really good thing of bread. It was good, but I was still wishing that I was eating what my family was eating. Then they wanted to eat something sweet. As hard as it was for me, I made them no bakes and I didn't even taste them. I feel shaky because I want to eat them, but I WILL NOT! I have enough calories left in my day, that I could probably have one, but I know that when I cheat, it is all over :( So I am going to keep a clear picture in my head of how flabby my ass is and if I cheat it will never be a pretty little ass again.

I took the walk

outside today. It was freezing cold and by the time I was getting close to being done, it started to rain. The ground was such a sloppy mess and in spots very slippy! I thought I was going to be able to go down this one road we have around here and it would be 3 miles the whole way down and back, but I was way off! It was only about 2 miles down and back. I ended up doing a total of 3 miles today though. Funny how different 3 miles feels outside compared to a treadmill. The almighty Ipod came in handy for sure today. Then my friend Jodi has been begging me to go check out Zumba. She does it and loves it, but I am always to shy to go to these kinds of things. I also was afraid I wouldn't be coordinated enough. After giving it some thought, I decided to go watch a class. I could not believe how much fun it looked and how welcoming the people were. I think I just may go to a class every now and then. It will be hard for me to do it a lot. Being a stay at home mom, I won't get much of a chance to go or have money to do it all the time. I do want to go and try it sometime. I will be proud of myself when I do go because I have a hard time with self esteem and always worry about what others will think of me. Oh and I was under my calorie goal again today. When I logged my calories it said if I ate every day the way I did today in 5 weeks I will be 147 I think. I hope that is an accurate number :)

there are no excuses

Yesterday I was ready to give up on the idea of losing weight. I couldn't think how I wanted to exercise being that my treadmill broke! Bff Said there are no excuses and if I am going to make excuses then I am going to be fat. I gave it a lot of thought and she is right! So today I ran 3 miles in my livingroom just by going back and forth. Yes it may sound funny, but I was very sweaty when I was done so I think it did something!~ This again is where Ipods are wonderful. I used my handy dandy cool new app. that I bought a week or 2 ago and I feel that it is pretty accurate. So I guess until we get the wii in this house I will be wearing out my floors. Thanks again BFF for pushing me.
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here are my 2 pictures today that I took and like

Click on the image for better quality :)

Broken

My treadmill has a brace that is breaking on it. I am so sad. I can't use it and it is to cold to workout outside. I am making excuses! This is the reason I stay fat~ Mya is getting a Wii for her birthday so hopefully once we get that, I will be back to doing some kind of workout. I am still trying to watch my calorie intake. Though I gained 4 pounds on the weekend having my Mommies night out. I swore I wouldn't eat or drink, but...I caved.

Mommies Night Out

I was invited for a Mommies night out. I really didn't think I wanted to go. After all, this would only be the 2nd time is 6 years that I left my husband and kids to go out and have me time. I am so glad I did it though. We had so much fun and laughed so hard. I was loud and maybe obnoxious, but I had fun dammit! I broke the rules of my diet and drank a shit ton of alcohol and I ate...LOTS!~